old, but i still like it

I'd walk to the edge of the world
Just to see your smiling face
To spend one day with you
It doesn't even matter the tim or place

I'm hooked on you
like some addicting pill
The way you love me
you make my heart spill

I day dream about you
I can't get you out of my head
From when I wake up in the morning
Til I lay in my bed

I see you look at me
It sends chills up my spine
i hope we last forever
until the end of time

Your the best I've ever had
Without you I would have no clue
But one thing I'm sure of
Is that I truely love you

for tomorrow may never come

I'm sick of feeling this pain
I don't want to feel anything at all
anything would be better than this
as you turn your back and let me fall

I wanted you more than the world
you knew you would get my hopes way up high
so you sat and pretended as if nothing was wrong
but everything you said to me turned out to be a lie

i gave you my all and everything i could
And you told me i've done you wrong
You just understand this certain part of me
that always needs to be so strong

The way I've treated people before
comes from the issuses that you cant see
I only love you now
But i know it will never be

young and restless

she looks in the miror
turns and walks aways
he thinks to herself
maybe tomorrow will be the day

she needs to be some one
she desires somebody to love
only god can help her
so she prays to the lord above

her prayers need to be answered
She cant go on being sad
she wishes she hadnt done those things
and ruined the only chance she had

But now its over and done
and possitively too late
to find some one again
who she can truely appreciate

fairy tales are only in books?

be my prince charming
and i'll be your cinderella
dress me up and take me out
i'll be the lady and you, the fella

make me feel alive and young
show me the world through your eyes
forget the rest of the world
forget about lust and the lies

your smile could brighten
even the darkest of night skies
and your words amaze me
how they're so sweet, so wise

you make me feel like i'm on a cloud
not a care in the world could ever bring me down
as i think about it more and more
i don't think you could ever make me frown

this is almost perfertion
these words you've been sending
i think you could make me forever happy
and give me the fairy tale ending

poem

so you tell me you love me
but is that really enough
i wish you would actually care
i wish you weren't so rough

the nights i've spent tossing and turning
all of your memories bring on pain
the torture you put on my soul
make me want an unconciousness i can't regain

you put on a show for everyone to see
its obviously that its all pretend
yet i keep falling back to you
you pull me in again and again

i wish that i could just leave
and hope the memories will disappear
there's no life left inside of me
i want to be anywhere but here

monday, february 23

so today wasn't nearly as bad as i was expecting it to be, which was such a relief. it was the one year anniversary of tamont's death, r.i.p. i didn't really know he he was, but i know everyone else did, i thought today was going to be depressing, but instead it was almost enjoyable, but then i remember it was school.

so even though i didn't know tamont, i do know how hard it is losing someone close.
so this blog is in memory of those who have passed but were the ones who brought the best life to our earth

the journey we call life

so, here's her story...her name is allison anne cattell, and she's not too fond of her name. She lives in a small town just across the water from philadephia. her passion is in the art, but she's not tlented at those things. she does not like to brag but, she's rather good at most sports. alli dislikes being called names, even if its just jokingly. she's one tough cookie and has a hard time finding her sensitive side, but she's far from heartless. she really thinks all animals are very cute, and she's got a thing for camels. so, she doesn't get the best grades, but she manages, though she's not dumb and could do better if she pleased. at first glance alli might seem really quiet and shy, and she is until you get to know her. after all that, she pretty much always speaks her mind freely aboutt whatever she is thinking. people laugh at her jokes but quite frankly i don't think she's too funny. she believes in treating people how they treat her, and its badly she usually just trys ignoring them. for the most part she believes actions speak louder than words, but honestly, give this girl a pen and some paper and she could better express to you any emotion she has and more clearly than actions would. alli has a flair for writing, and the imagination and creativity to go with it. if she sets her mind on something there's really no point of trying to get in her way, she'll do whatever it takes if she feels strongly enough about it. she has a lot of drive but is only motivated by certain things. she doesn't get much freedom from her parents and there tons of things she'd like to experience. she's a bit different from the status quo but she likes it better that way, yet she doesn't strive to be different either. alli is a very open minded little lady and she likes learning about new things, mainly things that she's not used to but appeal to her anyway. she thinks that everyone is entitled to an opinion as long as they have reson to back it up. she doesn't like when people don't think at all before they speak or speak like they have to brain to begin with. she does not approve of ignorant people or people who try to impress others by acting like they know everthing about everything. alli loves taking walks just to think, she loves winter trees with no leaves against the cold winter sky. she loves going to the river and just memorizing every detail of it. there is so much she would love to explore and so much she wants to do, all in all she's just a curious person trying to find the meaning of her presence on a wonderful journey we call life.



-allison cattell